On her new documentary I Am World Tour, which airs as a special on Thursday. Beyonce says 'I wanted the fans to be able to see what I see.' 'It's a lot of things I reveal about myself that I could never give to a director.'
Beyonce wearing no make up in her new documentary
She says 'There was one moment I was in China and I was in this huge suite and I looked out the window and there were just thousands of people walking and I couldn't believe my life,' she said. 'I guess I was a bit lonely and I wanted to talk to someone so I opened up my computer and I just talked.' In the preview clip – aired in the U.S. today – Beyonce ponders why she is so successful. 'Sometimes it’s overwhelming. Why did God give me my talent, my gift, my family? But I know you're not supposed to question God. 'Only God knows. And I don't take it for granted.' The singer reveals in the concert special that she appreciates her position more now than when she was younger. 'Now when I win six Grammys in a night I know to soak up every moment,' she says. 'I appreciate how incredible it all is.' She also reveals she is not pregnant but is 'getting close' to the day she wants to become a mother. 'Nothing now but there will be one day,' she says. 'One of the reasons I haven't had a child yet is because there are certain things I want to do before I focus on being a mother. 'I'm not there yet but I'm close.'